And I wonder......

Life has changed so much, I can’t imagine. Often when I am alone, I tried looking back in time and analyze the changes, while years went by before my eyes. I have always been a very thoughtful person, which often made everything very complicated. I have never planned anything in life but hoped for the results, I took things as they came and tried giving my 100% all the time. Like most of you, I too am always scared of failure and regret. So few years back I decided to say 'yes' to any opportunity that came my way and tried doing my best. However, at 27, I am still unsure of what I actually want to achieve or how to live the rest of my life. I was reading Chintu ba’s blog , where she questioned, if “does one really reap what one sows” still holds good in the modern era. My answer to things has been “whatever makes you happy”. I know that’s a very broad statement, but the basic truth is human beings are and have always been selfish. People who believe in the philosophy (that she stated) are selfish too as their focus is on “how they want to be treated” and people will keep living based on this philosophy only till the time they feel it working for them. Personally, i still believe in this philosophy as it makes me happy (selfishly).There isn't a single philosophy of life. Laws of nature, philosophy of life and purpose of one’s life is different for all individuals. There is no right or wrong. People build philosophies based on what their individual experiences.

Talking about laws of nature, philosophy of life and purpose of one’s life makes me wonder.... I feel all my’ 'fundas' on laws of nature and philosophy of life are pretty sound but what I really struggle figuring out- is the purpose of my life. My life has been great and I probably will not change anything if I had an opportunity to re-live, at this point. I consider myself very fortunate for having a life like this- the way things are. But why am I so fortunate? It makes me feel that I need to do something and not just feel good being fortunate. Though I have just been thinking and not taken any action. I like to look at the broader picture of life and probably that’s one of the reasons why I do not like to have too many attachments. I always felt attachments and commitments reduce the scope to live life with a broader perspective. Your life revolves around these commitments and this could be one of the reasons why I do not want to live like most people do (at least till the time I know what I want to get of it). Now, especially when people close to me advises me on or encourages me to start thinking about certain decisions in life, I start wondering…….